its july and i havent tackled anything on the to do list in the side ROFLMAO ... admittedly, ive been busy despite being unemployed. theres been school and the like and looking for jobs. plus, although they are few and far between - commissions! im currently working on one for an anonymous client that has me doing a lot of things in html ive never done before. its been challenging but lots of fun! the biggest challenge is being forced to use tumblrs theme editor, since i no longer use the adobe creative cloud. finding alternatives to dreamweaver has been difficult and working without real-time previews is a pain in the ass. if anyone has any recommendations please let me know wink wink nudge nudge

but in other news, i will be 25 years old in july! very strange. i never thought id make it to adulthood; i was a very miserable whelp of a teenager, which is mean but true. for my birthday, ill be going on a road trip with my brother to Holiday World, Kentucky Kingdom, Cedar Point and Kings Island with one of our friends! and ill be going to see the Foo Fighters and going to Hersheypark the day after my birthday. the day of, i get the exciting job of going into the city to a see a sleep doctor. for many years, ive had an issue with cataplexy, which is apparently a major symptom of narcolepsy. and when i tell you guys i can sleep, i truly mean it. i am among gods strongest sleepers. but when i sleep, i never feel completely rested ... which has already posed issues at school and at work for many years. its been a problem since i was much younger and im happy to finally get it addressed again (the last time it was, i got put on anti-seizure medication that made the problem worse)

i may be back in school in august unless i can find a full time job, which i admittedly want to do. school has never exactly been my happy place, especially given the fact i have ptsd that stems from being there. while i function decently well and rarely have panic attacks, i have very consistent nightmares. i was actually much happier working in fast food than i was in school; in a job, you dont have to worry about grades. as i may have mentioned last journal entry, my academic performance is mediocre at best and has been consistently so since ive been off my adhd meds

also, ive mentioned this on other websites, but i will not be participating in artfight this year (while ive made attempts to participate before). the longstanding issues with the servers & the fact the previous owner of the website stole donation money for personal expenses has me wary of using it, and until the current team steps up and addreses at the very least the server problem, i dont think ill be rejoining. i may retaliate against anyone who chooses to attack despite this, but thats really it ... youll have to ask for an art trade the ol fashion way (by the way, they are always open & youre more than welcome to ask if we are mutuals on social media )

thats all for now! someone remind me to start putting my long posts on here instead of on tumblr (even if my long posts on tumblr are much more miserable and less chipper than this)

QUICK EDIT : also, i have been making small updates to the website if anyones been keeping track for whatever reason! i should probably clarify that the update log above here is for more major changes, and not for things such as the portfolio and plushie page

happy new year! can you believe it? we made another lap around the sun!

i am currently sick with my second bout of covid in two years. so if this post sounds weird thats because my sickness is probably making my brain foggy. i will be going back to school within a few weeks, ill be a college sophomore! i still havent decided a major - if anyones seen my moaning on twitter (i am not calling it x), ive had a lot of issues pinning down exactly what i want to do because of my ... how do you call it ... Issues, in regards to my social skills and general development.

to be honest, i dont really do new years resolutions anymore. because i think theyre kind of stupid and id always end up breaking them within two weeks... or id just end up forgetting. but if i had to pick:

and these arent necessarily goals but i would like to get back on adhd medication because i think thats had an impact on my grades and ability to focus (both have been worse since i got off of them). ive been off them for almost a year and it sort of shows with my art production level going down from 2022 compared to 2023. but its sort of a conflict of interest within my family because of them being " Street Drugs ". or something like that. its silly, really, because i do function better with them and it has sown before

so yeah! thats all i have to say at the moment. maybe ill remember to update this thing on the regular. hopefully

GUESS WHO FORGOT ABOUT THIS... it was me. i need to update the website a little bit, the portfolio and whatnot

so i will no longer be using deviantart for the foreseeable future. this is the second time ive stopped posting there, i think? from now on, all of my artwork will be on tumblr, twitter (x) and possibly instagram. although im not too sure about instagram either

either way , i am alive and well - if you dont follow my other socials, that is. i am thinking about uploading some more fonts and doing some other fun stuff with the website, but for now i dont have any ideas. i do need to make the page on my pet cats, though, because i DO have ideas... ive really only been updating the plushie collection page. BUT! we shall see if those plans pan out

other things that have happened since my last journal entry on here:

another cool awesome thing is im probably gonna get tested for narcolepsy because theres a very good chance i have it :P yah

damn the fact i never properly archived or backed up my old art. anything before... mid 2011, id say, is lost to time forever unless i can find remnants of it. i am considering making a folder somewhere, maybe in google drive or something, or a separate tumblr blog to archive my old art so i can have it on hand. also damn the fact i never saved art that was made for me unless i really liked it... which is kind of an asshole move, but i was an asshole kid. what can you do. i want to kick younger mes ass though for the wasted time this has caused

anyways, i am currently working on my coding portfolio page. itll only have certain examples of my codes up, because i consider most of my themes outdated. all old codes will be avaliable on my theme blog, which will be linked on the page. itll also have my first professional website on it! very exciting things and all that

over the course of a few days, ive been transfering my sozai over to this computer. its been a real pain in the ass given that my old computer is basically on life support because it hasnt been updated, but whatever. i had thought id lost a bunch of images, but they were actually in the recycling bin! so ill have to get those transfered over to. in the meantime, i can do some image updates ive been wanting to do on here.

i also finished my pixels page. it was quite a bit of work, since i dont really code with image-based tables often, but hey! its all finished. and now that i actually know how to do this... some idea possibilities have opened up. i even widened my credits page so that way it changes size based on your monitors display size like the rest of my codes!

you may also notice i changed the buttons at the bottom of this page. originally, the images from this website (alicehome) were placeholders, but ive grown fond of this layout... so until further notice its permanent. the tiny amakusa is still there, although i might colour him pink so he fits the rest of this page. otherwise, not much new is going on - i do plan on changing my tumblr theme since i have all my sozai back (i actually finished my art blogs theme while preparing this), so look forward to that

haha jk im gonna make this a bit of a diary, but itll just be discussing site updates and future plans. ill figure out how to archive everything later. but anyways, at the moment i am looking for pixel sozai to use for the OC pixel page... i want it to look as old web as possible. but not having my old sozai collection makes it a bit difficult, because the websites i would ideally use are down/havent been archived, and all the images id saved are on my old computer. im even considering going for a cyworld minihompy type of look, but its very difficult to find images for the tabs/buttons. if gifcities and the web archive could save my ass right now, thatd be great, but i highly doubt it... god bless the people who saved all the images from kpop idols minihompies. they are the real heroes

anyways! i do have some plans for future layouts. for the past few days, ive been saving images from japanese websites and i found one i really like... and thats poka.twinstar.jp. once i am done the plant display layout (which i have started) ill do something with that. i also plan on doing things with some of the other sozai pages i have on my links page. its just a matter of actually doing them, really... im also going to be uploading some new fonts to my fonts page. thats about it, really